“Children are a blessing and a gift from the LORD.” Psalm 127:3 CEV
I am a mom of four ages 6, 3, 2 and 1. I did not “plan” my family this way, but God did. I have always wanted children since I can remember, but I was pretty set on the number that I wanted. God had something else in mind though. (I want to be very honest in this blog so that maybe through my struggles others might learn or be encouraged.)
My husband and I waited for 4 years before having children while we were finishing college. I have never liked birth control, but saw it as a necessary evil. After all, having children is not an easy task. I was working full-time when my first was born and had to return to work. My husband quit his job and was the stay at home parent while he worked on his Master’s degree. I went back on birth control after our first child and we planned for the right time for the second child. After the second child was born I felt a strong urge from God not to resume birth control. I did for a short period of time, but eventually gave in to His nudgings.
The conversation went something like this:
– Do you trust me?
– Of course I do, but right now we are struggling financially, I’m having to go back to work part-time when my baby is only 6 weeks old, Lenard is in college, our house is too small, our car is too small!!!
– Do you really trust me?
– Yeeeessss, but . . .
– Do you trust me?
– (Deep breath and a little fear) Yes.
My husband and I discussed it and felt it was really what WE were supposed to do and we haven’t turned back or regretted it since!
Our 2nd, 3rd and 4th children were born in 2008, 2009 and 2010. Not particularly easy pregnancies either especially in the last trimester! I kind of think God was trying to see if we really meant it! I absolutely can not imagine life without any of my children and I thank God every day for the blessings that He has entrusted us with.
Is it easy? No way! But it sure is fun! My husband is in the military and often has to be gone for a week or two (thankfully not more than that in his particular field), and I am homeschooling my oldest as well so there are a lot of challenges to face. I have to say that some of them I handle pretty well I think, but probably more often I crash and burn and have to try again. My hubby is out-of-town right now and let me tell you, to not have him walk through the door and rescue me at the end of the day is really hard. (I admire all of you who are single moms. You are stronger women than me. I don’t know how you do it, but I guess you do what you have to right?!) Without the help and guidance of my Heavenly Father I don’t know what I would do. “If He brings you to it, He will guide you through it!”
Well, as I am very busy and easily distracted (squirrel – where was I?), my posts will probably be a little sporadic. My goal is to post at least once a week. I appreciate any comments and feedback as long as they are appropriate and have no foul language. May God bless you all. Thanks for reading!