Infant Loss

I’ve been seeing a lot about this month being Pregnancy and Infant Loss Awareness Month.  Yesterday, October 15th was Pregnancy and Infant Loss Remembrance Day.

Our family too knows the grief of losing an unborn baby.  I didn’t really talk about it much, just with my closest friends and family.  It was just too hard to talk about.  The pain was just too deep.  Though I still miss that baby that would have been born last month, my wonderful Heavenly Father has brought healing and comfort.  Losing an unborn baby is hard and it is a loss and I encourage any of you who have gone through this to allow yourself to grieve this loss.  What a comfort though to know that that baby gets to grow up in Heaven with Jesus never knowing loss or pain or sadness.  Also, knowing that one day if you have accepted Jesus as Lord, you will get to see that precious child!

I can’t help during this time also to think of all the precious babies that have been lost to abortion.  I just felt led to say that if any of you reading have lost a baby to abortion that there is healing for you as well.  Our Heavenly Father does not treat anyone differently.  If you will come to Him and ask for forgiveness, He will forgive, forget and bring healing for you as well.

Some of you may also have lost a baby after it was born.  My heart goes out to you.  I can’t even fathom the pain you must have been through.  I pray that God will heal your heart and help you to live in this world until you are able to be reunited some day.

When you lose a baby before it is born, there is no grave to visit, no memorial, sometimes no good closure.  If you have been through this and are having trouble bringing closure try making a little memorial for your little person.  Maybe a letter, maybe a journal entry.  If you have an ultrasound picture maybe frame it, or maybe even make a little grave.  Whatever it might be that helps you bring closure.  Don’t feel silly.  Then pray and God will bring comfort and help you to move past the hurt.  Though we will never forget the little ones that should have been, there is healing in Jesus name.  God bless.

Luke 4:18  [Words of Jesus] The Spirit of the Lord is upon me, because he hath anointed me to preach the gospel to the poor; he hath sent me to heal the brokenhearted, to preach deliverance to the captives, and recovering of sight to the blind, to set at liberty them that are bruised.

Psalm 139:13-16  You made all the delicate, inner parts of my body and knit me together in my mother’s womb.  Thank you for making me so wonderfully complex!  Your workmanship is marvelous—how well I know it.  You watched me as I was being formed in utter seclusion, as I was woven together in the dark of the womb.  You saw me before I was born.  Every day of my life was recorded in your book.  Every moment was laid out before a single day had passed.

ps – a good book to read – Heaven is for Real by Todd Burpo


A Tribute to Tiffany

Last night we found our sweet Tiffany dead in her kennel.  Tiffany has been a part of our famliy since she was 6 weeks old.  She was born December 19, 2003, so was 8 years old.  We were shocked by her death as we had no indication that there was even anything wrong.  I am actually grateful for that though.  I always prayed that when it was our doggies time to go that we would not have to make the decision to put them down or see them suffer for a long time.  My husband suspects a seizure, we don’t know for sure.  She will be greatly missed.  We adopted her and her brother BJ and sister Brittany to keep them together and they have never been apart.  Now our trio is down to two.

I have dreaded this day for a long time but with pets you know it is coming.  I am grateful for the 8 years that I got to spend with our beautiful beagle baby.  We loved you Tiffany and I hope you knew that.  The children are handling it well.  Better than I am.  These dogs were my first babies.

God is gracious though.  We live in a condo so could not have buried her here.  My brother-in-law Josh came over yesterday to pick something up and ended up staying late so was here and was able to take her body back to the country and bury it for us.  Lenard left to go out of town this morning so I don’t know what I would have done if Josh had not been here to help.  Thank you Josh.  It means a lot to our family.  The kids were already in bed so they did not have to go through the trauma either.  Lenard was able to tell them one-on-one this morning.  The pieces just all fell together.  I know God was there with us and is taking care of us even through our sadness.  Say a prayer for us if you would.